Hi guys! I decided to title this post “It’s Okay” because truth be told, I’ve been having a tough couple of weeks. Almost everything has felt like a struggle to me. I first decided to create this page to openly talk about the ups and downs of life. I wanted to let people know that it is OKAY and NORMAL to struggle. However, I’ve been feeling unnecessary pressure that I put on myself about my blog. I had this grand plan for how I wanted to run my site. I had posts planned, content saved, and strategic ways of how I was going to run a “successful” mental health blog. After the first couple weeks in, I can’t help but feel overwhelmed with the up keep that it takes to have engaged followers and continue to grow a follower base. Because, hey, that’s what makes a site successful: your follower base. But I’ve found that the pressure of needing to post everyday to keep followers engaged has been taking a toll on my mental health. I’m constantly feeling like I should do this or I should do that. I began to think that maybe I started this blog too soon in my mental health journey. I didn’t post for almost a week straight on my blog’s Instagram because I thought it would be almost hypocritical of me to preach good metal health when I didn’t feel like I was in a positive spot. I began to feel like a failure. A couple days ago I was in a session with my therapist when it suddenly clicked in my head and I realized that I’m doing this blog for me, not for followers or for the “clout.” Yes, followers are amazing and I want to be able to connect with people, but having a set schedule to post and overly planned content is inorganic to me. That’s not me. I want to post when I have a message or when I’m feeling something. I realized that the purpose of my site isn’t to ONLY preach good mental health; it’s to talk about and share when I’m feeling down. I want to normalize talking about when you feel depressed or anxious, not ignore it and keep posting like everything’s okay.
SO, I wanted to take some time to remind you that it’s OKAY not to post every day. It’s OKAY to feel over whelmed. It’s OKAY to post a lot and then take some time. It’s OKAY to run your blog or site how you want to. It’s OKAY to do what’s best for your mental health. It’s OKAY to talk about your feelings.
Right now, I’m feeling a little frustrated. I feel like I’m having difficulty writing out how I actually feel. Along with depression and anxiety, I struggle with ADHD and my mind is scattered frequently. I often have trouble communicating how I feel and putting it into actual words. Sometimes I feel like I can’t even speak correctly and I end up jumbling all my words together and it sounding like I just had a stroke… hopefully you can understand what I’m actually trying to say here.
This week I want to challenge my readers to tell yourself that it’s OKAY when you start having a bad thought or start thinking negatively about yourself. Take a deep breath, tell yourself it’s okay, and remember your worth.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read!! I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!
Mental. 